Monday, 17 June 2013
Father's Day!
It has too be the hardest thing in the world holding your partner at the grave side of your stillborn baby! When we lost our baby girl at 23+4 weeks we were both broken! He stayed strong for me and I for him! But yesterday was Father's Day and he had wanted too open his cards and presents with our baby at her grave side. It was so hard for him and I never realised how much it affected him because I was wrapped up in my feelings! I wish I could change things but I can't. Now I will because I realise how hard it is for my fiancée, how was Father's Day with your angels daddies?
Wednesday, 22 May 2013
Time just flies
5 weeks today I gave birth too my sleeping angel! :( and right now I'm back in hospital waiting too to down to theatre too have my baby's retained placenta removed! All fun and games.... As always!
Saturday, 18 May 2013
Retained placenta troubles!!!!
14 days after my princess was born silently into the world I was bathing my niece when I felt like I was wetting myself! Luckily I was in the bathroom so I jumped onto the loo and too my horror I was bleeding... Not just a bit though I could have filled 2 pints easily! There were clots the size of my fist. My mum had a retained placenta with me and knew exactly what It was! She rang 999 and an ambulance blue lighted me too yeovil hospital. I was admitted AGAIN to labour ward. Too the exact room I gave birth too Sadie in!!! :( as if it wasn't hard enough! They put an iv drip in my arm and the gynaecologist came in to see what caused my bleed! He could see bits of Sadies placenta still inside me! They kept me in over night and kept me on an antibiotic drip because the placenta was rotting away inside me and caused a massive infection!! The next day I was promised too have a scan by 12pm! 3:30pm and they took me down too scan!!! They found bits of her placenta 17mm bits and told me that they want too put me on a full 7 day course of antibiotics but they were happy it would pass naturally! I requested a full gynaecology scan as I wasn't convinced it would work!! A further 14 days later on the month anniversary of my baby's sleeping birth I had my scan! The sonographer looked worried and told me I have the placenta bits still in there and that my womb wall should be 11mm and mine is 21mm!!! She sent me too the gynaecologist as a matter on urgency!!! The gynaecologist told me that I would be taken down to surgery on Monday or Tuesday! So here I am waiting for my scan... Once again I feel let down that they left me too pass her placenta!!! After 1 month it's still inside me :( psychologically its nasty knowing I'm carrying around my sleeping baby's placenta bits!! But there is nothing I can do expect wait for them too take me to theatre on Monday or Tuesday!! I will keep you posted on my surgery! If anyone else has experienced any problems with after care please let me know so I can relate too you, thanks :) xxx
Friday, 17 May 2013
Dads of still born babies
Have any mothers of stillborn babies thought about support for the fathers?! My fiancée had too watch as I went through the labour of our 23+4 week old still born girl... Without pain relief and he was helpless! I'm yet too find support groups for dad? Any one who knows any could you let me know? Or any dads who want too share their thoughts or feeling on this subject just comment! I'm sure my fiancée will have his say on here! 💛👼💜
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